It is 3:35 am. I can't go to sleep. Because I'm too excited. After listening to Selena Gomez new song, Wolves. I discovered a new artist, Marshmello. I was fascinated with his secret identity, or at-least what he tries to make of it, even though we all know he's Dotcom.) Anyways, I started listening to a whole bunch of his songs and I really dig it. I've been in a funk for several months now. I stopped listening to music and doing things that I enjoyed. But listening to his music, It sparked something in me. Like my soul was lit on fire again. I don't know how to describe it. But I feel..... alive.
I am the type of person to enjoy all kinds of music, including EDM. And I've always wanted to go to to EDC. It's the biggest Electronic music festival in the states. And I decided that next year, I will finally be attending. This is a really big deal to me. Because I haven't felt this excited for something in so long.
Also as you may know from my previous post, I"ve been battle with my binge eating addiction, so once agained I've put on over 40 pounds in 2 short months.. I know on my last post I said that I was going to try to lose 10 pounds by Halloween. Well, that did not happen. I can't even say I gave up because I didn't even try....I know I can do it. I just didn't have the will to push through.
But today, after listening to some badass music, it woke something inside of me. And you know what, I am not going to give up on myself. I fall 7 times and I will get back up 8. Besides, I've done this before, I know I can lose the weight. Just like what my good friend said, you've done it once, you can do it a thousand times.
My goal is to get in my healthy shape by the time EDC arrives. Which gives me about 6 months. It is a realistic goal.
I am going to start hitting the gym again. And you betcha that I will be jamming out to some Marshmello :)